Mike woke up around 5 am. I told him the boys were still sleeping. He usually gets up about 5:45 am. I didn't want him to leave before they woke up, but I didn't want to wake them either. They have had some long nights due to their social life and I knew they needed the sleep for the long drive ahead of them.
Finally, Dustin wakes up and comes out. Seems as tho the bed was too hard so he slept on the floor.. That would be little James bed. Sorry about that, it was a kids bed. Dustin and his dad had a chance to say goodbye before Mike left for work.
By this time, I am ready for my second cup of coffee. Finally, Nick wakes up and the boys prepare for their day of travel. Dustin and I hug, yep and I cry. I had tried to be strong. I saw tears in Dustin's eyes too. I know it's hard to let them go, but I also know it's a great opportunity.
Again, we hug and I cry.. I spend the next hour just crying. Why you ask? Because I can and I am entitled. I am being selfish, self-centered and depressed. Not because he left, but because I am going to miss him.
I fill the day with cleaning the house, doing laundry and such. I know in time I will start to feel better. I know when I start seeing pictures posted on FB of Oregon and Washington, lakes and rivers, mountains and streams that I will feel better.
They are going out there without jobs or a place to live. But they have a place to stay, a place for storage and a good attitude. They are full on ambitions, wants and needs. They will make it because they can.
I am proud of the boy, guy and man Dustin has become. I know he will change in many ways, he will become more worldly,experienced, and knowledgeable. There is a lot to see and do in Oregon, and I know that is what they have planned.
I look forward to flying out in January for his birthday,and a road trip next summer. But for now, I just want to get through this day
Sad Kathy
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